Scottei's Scribbles

When I was younger and still living under my parent’s roof, I made it my motto that the purpose of my life would be to Glorify God, to point others to Christ.  My desire was that when people looked at me, they would see a reflection of Christ.  My life verse is Hebrews 12:1-2 – “Wherefore seeing we also are compassed about with so great a cloud of witnesses, let us lay aside every weight, and the sin which doth so easily beset us, and let us run with patience the race that is set before us, Looking unto Jesus the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God.”

When I got out into the world, I have been challenged many times in different areas and made many decisions, not all of them in line with this motto.

Today, as I look back, I often feel that I do not have the relationship with Christ that I once had as a child.  It is not because I have not tried, but because I have racked up a lot of sins, mistakes, and regrets.  Isaiah a prophet in the Old Testament said: “Woe is me! for I am undone.”  (Isaiah 6:5) Paul referred to himself as the chiefest of sinners in 1 Timothy 1:15 “. . . sinners; of whom I am chief.”   What I can I say?  They must never have met me.  I am much worse than the two of them put together.  It is easy now for me to let this cloud my determination to keep getting back up and seeking God.  The Bible says in Proverbs 24:16: “For a just man falleth seven times, and riseth up again: but the wicked shall fall into mischief.”  We are not defeated when we sin, because Christ has forgiven us, and his grace is sufficient.  We are defeated when we refuse to get back up again and keep trying.  We are defeated when we allow our past failures to keep us down and keep us from pursuing that Devine Relationship, that beautiful wonderful relationship with God.  After all, we are but sinners, Saved by His Grace?  (I Timothy 1:15).

I hope when people look at me today, they do not see someone that is trying to be better than others or think that he is better than others.  I hope they see someone who is seeking after God.  Someone who is but a sinner, saved by His Grace.

2 Corinthians 4:7 –“But we have this treasure in  earthen vessels, that the excellency of the power may be of God, and not of us.”